Day Seventeen

02 May 2007

Time: 23:27

Task: Approach attractive woman. Ask for coffee. Make her aware of your sexual intent, i.e. SOI, flirting, whatever method or name you have.

Damn, I didn't finish Day 17. I know it says you have to start again but really I'm gonna listen to the NLP phrase "there is no such thing as failure only learning lessons" This won't defeat me and you will still hear my war stories.

I walked around for my whole lunch hour not finding a single chick hot enough to go with. I sat down and used my phone for a couple minutes and decided I had to go back to work. At that point some really fit chick walked past and I felt like asking but I was already late and I had the feeling I already knew her so I just said Hi and walked on (About an hour on, I remembered I used to work with her briefly in a resteraunt). I had to work late and didn't get out until all the coffee shops were closed. I was tempted to get another train to london but it was late even by their standards so I decided to call it quits for today. One of the hardest decisions I've had to make since starting this.

I did feel like it was the end of the world when I couldn't complete it and had to work late but it really isn't so bad. I've come a long way in a short time and I woudn't have even dreamed of doing this stuff during my average day before. I will accept that I didn't make it today and start with a fresh mind tommorow(and I'm not working late!).

At one of my lowest points today I rememberred a quote from a deck of cards I own:


People like what's familiar

What you did yesterday worked well enough to keep you alive until today. This is a big success as far as evolution is concerned, so we are naturally inclined to use old habits of behaviour and thought. When you've been doing something new for a while (whether it's going to the gym, tidying your desk or changing your thinking) it's typically smooth sailing until you start to change. Then your mind sets off the alarm bells, and you may feel like you can't be bothered to do it anymore. This is a signal that you're moving out of your comfort zone. Celebrate! Pat yourself on the back! You're really making changes and you've got evidence. Now keep going!


Before I found my way into this program and some of the surrounding ideas I've met on the way, all the other ideas and beliefs that it has brought into my life, I may have taken today as a complete failure. Heck I wouldn't even be at this stage. It didn't go to plan, I wasn't happy with the results but I can't change that. You will aways fall down, it's how often and the way that you stand that counts.