Day One

17 April 2007

Time 18:55

OK so today I started Demonic Confidence. I had the first task of asking 30 women the time so I decided to make them attractive women as thats who I want the confidence with. It was actually harder than I thought to find enough women I would want to sleep with from the outset in my lunch break, many today were too old. At the start it was a bit spaced out and I was getting nervous twinges as I went to approach the various women. I started getting really self concious. Would people see me asking all these random women the time? Would somebody notice that I was beelining directly for cute gals to get the time. As I got to about the 14th I started to hear a negative voice in my head saying maybe I should put it off, there wasn't enough time etc. excuses basically. Then I pushed through and got like 5 in an instant. Started to waver again as the quality slightly reduced. Finally aorund 25 I started hearing a positive voice in me head telling me to go for it, knock em dead, etc. Then for my final gal I decided I wanted someone really fit and I saw this blonde chick that is always walking around my town on her lunch break also. I had the following internal dialogue I remember word for word.

Shes gone past, too late,
I will kick myself if I dont just go approach,
Well it's too late there will be others anyway.
Oh for fcuk sake just go.

And to that I started jogging back down the street in her direction. Had to go about 30-40 metres before I caught up with her and then I asked her the time, threw in some dialogue about how I was running late and she hooked in that she was also. I ejected here and I was actually running late but I was so fcuking proud for chasing her down. This girl that I've been eyeing up for weeks. Day one complete and it feels fcuking great. I know this is piss compared to some stuff I'm going to have to do but hey that's life and I want to live it so here I come...