Day Five

Well Day 5..... Damn... Day 5... I did it. Well over an hour but I fcuking did it. You would not believe how hard I found this today. "Approach 30 women age and looks regardless and compliment them on something non sexual" - It sounds so bloody simple but Damn I found it so hard. Like seriously crazy hard. When I first read it yesterday still with a bit of a buzz from yesterdays task i thought that shouldnt be too hard after all ive done all this other stuff, plus when I'm out drinking I say random shit to people all the time.

So anyway today draws around and I work in the morning and get out. I approach one girl after kicking myself for about 3 mins. Town is buzzing and I'm thinking "I can do this, so many fit lasses around" Then I get a call saying some family are over from another country so I end up spending two hours sitting with them in a coffee shop. This whole time I'm distracted thinking I need to get away and do my task, get it over with, and as the day goes on I see the amount of people lessening and lessening. I don't live in central london like a lot of people so my city does sleep. I finally get out at around 4.30 rearing to go and suddenly shit myself. I think I spent about 10 minutes before I went to the first one after the coffee and damn she was fine. When I saw the smile on her face as I payed her a compliment I knew I had to do it there was no way I was going to fail this, The sound of her voice as she replied lifted my spirits and for about 30 seconds, before I remembered the challenge, I was on a high. Following this I was having huge gaps and just couldn't bring myself to approach them. About an hour went by and I had only gone up to 8 girls! Damn with 30 mins before the centre closed I rushed around franticly trying to pluck up the courage. I got in the flow a bit and approached about 10 in relatively quick succesion. By the end I was desperate and I'm sure it was showing but I ploughed on and finally racked up the 30 requested in just over an hour and a half. The buzz lasted about 2 minutes but I am seriously shattered and my shoulders are tight. Today took it out of me for sure, I never realised it could be so hard for me to just compliment a girl. Ultimately I was still scared till the very end, though it did lessen a lot, but I did it. I bloody did it and thats what matters. I am not going through all of today to carry on and fail this course or drop out. I'm in it till the very end!

P.S. Just read tommorows excercise and believe it or not after today Im feeling good about getting scared as described in it.